GOA. the freak show #2

#2) the dilemma

sitting here at the bus station at a distant part of pune. here to drop my uncle, who is going back to indore. weather, a little grey. mood, a little sour. in a very different mood since a couple of days. this might be happening because of the several restrictions that i have been putting upon me, in a desperate want of self reconstruction. the more you endure, the more you grow, they say. you have low endurance, the gym trainer said. drink more water, the trainer said. you have got good IQ, the HOD said. but you lack toilsome, the HOD said. everyone questions my capabilities nowadays, other people predict my mornings and my nights, better than what i do. they always be right. maybe, i feel a serious need to change that. now, my cousin is so damn sure that i will eventually say yes to goa. even i cannot imagine a scene where he is leaving for the adventurous lands of goa and me waving goodbye. but maybe, the self restrictions i have imposed on myself will win over the great urge inside me to have aa great weekend. but maybe, i am not the best predictor i know, of my own actions. looking forward to the result.
             the bus leaves right infront of me, to the place i was before. to the place i once belonged to. also, i am hungry as hell. controlling the diet bullshit. looking forward to the burger place nearby.